Saturday, July 26, 2003

Wow, I haven't been near a computer in three days, working like mad and all. But I have today off! Yay! I am leaving for Maryland tomorrow, camping with my family. For a week. Draw your own conclusions. :) Sabrina is back in town, but I have niether seen nor heard from her. I can't take my car to MD, which is sad :(, but things will work out. I hope. Anyway, email me if you have time! Tata

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

I don't have much time today, but here is this... Strongbad Email. It is a beautiful thing.

I am learning to draw anime. Mostly because Its easy, but also because I like it. Three shows, every night: Big O, Kikader, and Trigun. Cartoon Network, another beautiful thing.

Peace Out!

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

So here I am... typing my little thing for the day. I think I will talk about two subjects that are, in my mind, very close together: guys and country music. The former, because it has been on my mind a lot lately, and the latter, well, someone maligned country music, one of my dearest friends in fact, and I mean to set him straight on why it is such a wonderful thing.

I want to marry someone I am friends with, someone who likes me for who I am. I want to be able to dance around my living room and sing sweet, sentimental songs to somebody I love. I won't marry a guy who isn't a Christian, actively striving to grow in their relationship with God, and somebody that I know I can follow. That, as far as religion goes, is the most important thing. I don't care about doctrinal differences, for the most part. I cn respect that people believe different things than I do, and if it comes down to something that is between myself and God anyway, then other people's opinions don't matter. I don't know how to explain better than that. Maybe writing this out will help me remember when I need to, and keep my head watching over my heart.

As for country music... granted, there is a lot of crappy music out there, I do not deny it. But there are a lot of songs that talk about an ideal world, about love and family, that are just so sweet. There are songs that make me sigh, and dream, and think 'It would be so awesome if I could find someone who felt that way about me...'. I am a very southern girl at heart with southern ideals. I believe in 'Old-fashioned', and 'tradition'. I like other kinds of music too, but sometimes a country song articulates the way I feel better than I could myself (see my second post for an example). For my sister's graduation I printed out a hopeful song to put in the cover of her memory book that we gave her. Even if you don't like country music, realize that some of us find something very wholesome about it. Some of it. The kind I like.

Peace out! Have a good week! Love you!

Sunday, July 20, 2003

I have just realized that I talk to way too many guys. I mean its not that I don't love them and all, but still... I am talking to William, Andy, and Andrew right now...and no girls. Unless Caly or Randi are on, or Tara is home to talk to on the phone, I almost never talk to girls. Its just not fair. Tara, by the way, is very much cool like Jello. Randi is fifteen and from Denmark, and pretty cool too... she is multi-lingual... I know she speaks Danish, Japanese, English, German, a smattering of Spanish, French, and probably a couple of other languages.

So its Sunday, come home from a convicting church service, and I am in a weird mood. Figuring some things out about myself that I need to deal with. I am so scared of going back into a low point, but today is hopeful. I hope you guys will keep me in your prayers, you know that you are in mine.

I am not at the library for once!

Oye guapo, quieres ir a mi casa a practicar espanol?

Saturday, July 19, 2003

Woohoo! Back at the library, the coolest place to type, lol. I don't know why, dangit... it just is! So, after I got off work last night, I made my weekly phone call to see if Aaron W. cell was still turned off... and it wasn't! So I stopped by Waffle House on my way home from work *coughnotonthewaycough* to say hi to him while he was working. Also found out that I have an allergic reaction to Waffle House Picante Sauce. Adventures, I know. I also talked to a friend from my childhood that I hadn't heard from in almost a year, Rebecca Bushby. She was one of my only friends in the sixth-ninth grades. And that was another adventure, catching up on everybodies news. Hmm, what else... still haven't talked to that person I need to talk to, I don't really know what to say. I will figure it out. I have to work in 20 minutes, and I am actually liking it. I like knowing that I am in charge, and get to boss a cute guy around. And he has to listen... *grin*. I like having the responsibilty, and my work isn't hard. So I can honestly say, for the first time, that I like my job. I did like dayare off and on, but it was so emotionally stressful... it was a rewarding job, but not always fun. This jobn is pretty much always fun (for those who don't know, I work at a cajun restaurant called Jozo's Bayou Gumbo) I go back to school in four weeks, and my roomate situation is getting confusing... maybe I will take some time later to explain the whole thing. Well, I have to go... not really, it only took five minutes to type this... but I have run out of things to say. Vaya con Dios!!!

Friday, July 18, 2003

I am online at the local public library right now... and I don't have long. 50 minutes and then, and I quote the librarian, "Click! And the whole system just shuts off!" This is much easier than updating my webpage anyway.

I have a dilemma in my life... I think I need to talk to someone about something, but I do not know how to approach them about it. Partially because I know my own life is screwed up, so what right do I have talking to anyone else, and also because I am afraid they won't listen to me.

I am trying to find peace in my life, and still feeling a little lost. I need to get some things right in my life, with myself and with others. I have made so many mistakes! I am not going to give up, quit, whatever, but I am going to make myself try. Its the best I can do. No matter what happens, I am going to hang onto my faith... its all I have.

Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could go wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hide away
Somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

It's almost like the hard times circle 'round
A couple drops and they all
Start coming down
Yeah, I might feel defeated
I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing but I'm not dead

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

I'm not gonna let it get me down
I'm not gonna cry
And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight...

Thursday, July 17, 2003

Yes, it is true, I AM cool like Jello! Mike says so. Caly is also cool like Jello, just in case you ever wanted to know. Why Jello? Why do you have to ask silly questions, hmm? Anyway, I have decided to make my webpage a "happy place", so this is where I shall rant from henceforth. Well, William does it.. and he is also cool like Jello. So, peace to ya momma! (Thanks Rob!)